Well, I always say, “don’t ask if it could get worse because it always can”. I have really been struggling with back pain, these past few weeks. So, I have really been fighting depression.
It’s easy to fall into depression. There are times I don’t even realize I’m depressed. Eventually, it makes itself undeniably evident.
So, what is depression? I do believe, physically, it has to do with chemical imbalances. Although, I think it has more to it than just imbalanced neurotransmitters.
At it’s root, for me anyway, it is a manifestation of ungratefulness. I feel unhappy about everything. The reality is that I have a lot to be thankful for. The number one reason I have to be thankful is that God loves me. He sent his son to die on the cross in my place. Sin is an awful burden to bear and Jesus bore my sins. He paid my price. What more do I need to be grateful and thankful.
This pain of this life is temporary. I’ve been reading Hope when it Hurts by Kristen Wetherell and Sarah Walton. My sister Liz brought it to me when I really needed it. I’m very thankful for my family in Christ.
We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed.
2 Corinthians 4:8
Even though this book is sad, it gives me hope and reminds me that God is using this pain for my good. I am relying on him because I cannot do this on my own. I’m so thankful that I may be afflicted but I will not be crushed. No matter how hard it feels like I’m being crushed. This pain is only temporary because this life is temporary. It should be a reminder of what I have been saved from, an eternity of pain separated from God. One day, I will see the big picture. One day, I will understand the reason for this suffering. One day, I will be with my loving Savior and that will be my eternity. No pain, no tears, no suffering just happiness and love in God’s amazing glory.
How can I feel depressed? My sins have been forgiven. I have been set free from the burden of this body. I’m so thankful for Jesus Christ, my wonderful Savior.