Another Day Another Struggle

I started today with hope. I finally have a way to express how I feel. I can finally connect with others who understand because they’ve been there or are there. You know what I mean.
If I ever confuse you with my writing I’m very sorry. I tend to write the way I think. And it’s usually mixed up or my mind is way ahead of my typing. Just as I will try to clear it up.
So today I decided to fight the battle strong 💪! I was going to get up at 6:30 am??? Lol yeah that didn’t happen. Well, I did get up around 8 am. I even rode my exercise bike for 40 minutes. I stopped because my fitbit died from not being charged lol. Why ride if it isn’t being counted, right?
I got my son up. He has special needs (that’s a whole other story). I made us breakfast and fed him. I was determined not to go to bed again. Yeah, that didn’t happen.
While I was laying in bed I started thinking. “Why did I lie down? I really wasn’t feeling too bad?” I realized that I am still battling myself . My mind is telling me “I need to lie down”. But, my body is still at around a level 3 or 4 in pain. Which is pretty livable for me. I don’t know. I guess I realized, that my mind is a whole other struggle I have to fight.
Not only my emotions. Which, you can ask my husband, are crazy out of control sometimes. Even my quiet mind that is kinda on autopilot. I need to be more conscious of my decisions. I need to be more disciplined. It is so hard to know the balance. If I push too hard, I end up going backwards. One step forward two steps back.
Does anyone else feel this way? How do you overcome this obstacle that is your own mind?
Please share your experience.
Sincerely,
Serenity
” Never Give Up!

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